Self of myself





© oliver a. melendez

@Vb 139. b2.48 / Dhudles



Dare i put up my face

Lalo na kung invite kita pa sa ep bee

Did i enter my name right,

Paano pa kung tanongin mo pa ako ng number ko

In the days ahead 

I know not being famous

In the right mind to associate all this going through

To which ego will be boosted

To which my conceited heart beat upon the green ventricles

Paano na yan pag malaki na ang followers ko dito

Then wala akong magagawa kundi 

Mag pa kumbaba


I want to believe

Yet there is nothing more to believe

What would you say if i said would you, could you, how dare you

Do you want to see,

Care to touch what i feel and see,

Still you are doubters,haters, loathing and feeling

But not believing.


Then how do you?

Do you really have to,

Do you really need to,

Why cant you,

If you cant give that to yourself, then why ask it, why bother?


How then can you,

So you make it up, give meaning to it

Then it then be a purpose to your meaning

In the end it will be your justifications.

Now you have made yourself your own king or queen

On your own dominion

Making monsters out of your own dragons and demons

And saving them with your own angels.


Then it is your own myth

Can you believe you done it yourself,

Or was it just another belief becuz

You cant even believe in the first place

Eat thyself


Are we snakes of time?
Coz we are
We keep eating ourselves up
From morning til night
We eat first the dirt we lie in
Then the thougts comes in
With that our forked tongue keeps us in duality
Then the next day
We shed
A momentarily sense of being free
Then go back at it again



With two hands I am whole
On my right
My shield

I move up and flurry
I back then defend
I slide I deflect
I step block

Two sticks
Makes me know what to expect
Makes me more than a idea
Makes me more dangerous

But does it make me any wiser
A foolhearted warrior
An arrogant man
Or do I seem smug and conceited?

Am I so much alone


Am I among friends

If I am then at least loneliness has nothing on me
If I am
Then the voices keep me company
These voices gets me teary up
And does cleanse what I need to

And they say misery loves company
I say to those then
The company is well met
And it serves me well.

Roots go deep


These roots are mine
They go deep
Mine alone
My problem
My stressor

Thus far I am rooted in my own
This is my own
My choice
My life

Structure, foundation and groundwork
Are my branches
As my leaves die, so will I
In time I’ll grow somewhere else
You’ll see my life won’t be anything but change



As I look up
Then down
And ahead

Things cannot be changed

People come by
Then separate ways
Amidst the traffic of life

On cannot be against it

The need to change,  is the cause
The wanting of change cannot be done

Accepting the need is much greater than the w want

The twilight


Are you my dream?
How do I wake up from my own?
Can you take my illness away from me?

Your dreaming your life away
Open your eyes
It’s all about your self

When can I see myself?
Where is my love?
Please mighty sage, help me please?

Here is a mirror look at it
Find it in you
No one can help you but you

Please don’t fade away
Come here old friend
Tarry not, keep my demons away

For you old friend and pupil
I’ll be here till your day
Into the morrow and moat of yourself