Bloodscream

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How much pain i am in
When you see nothing
That i do
And all the hurt i am in
When you make me go deeper
Way in my own
Wallowing of tears.

Misery, pain and sorrow
The only friends i know now
At least they are always going to be

And you call yourself my life partner,
The one who vowed under oath
Under your sacrifices mirrored my own.

It is a feral scream
Inside that sounds off
Yells
Shouts and growls in and out.

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Leaked inside out

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Cried my last
But to my last
I found a halo inside
A halo of my own
And thats the only
Faith ill ever believe in,
Me.

I have to push it out
As i will make it
My habit
Character
Into my fate and destiny
To guide my desired path.

No more questions
No more answers,
Its me.

MANIA

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Hold true
To something old
And make it anew.

Be you
Stand and deliver as i would shiver
Like you
I am no giver, only a taker.

Stood by and saw the sea
As rocks,brine, and cold water take me
Drowned in my own river
Why should i even dare trickle forth on mine face
When there is nothing to hide.

I will hide when there is nothing more
To see
To hear
And fear that which is never there.

Over you

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These tears will come to an end
After my eyes stop
After my convulsions
Heaved to its last

I see nothing but anger in every turn
My rage burst
As my fist jams into something solid

My head swirls
As I flop to the floor
Kneel
Boy
Kneel

Why do I hate then love
Why do I bother

Am I so much alone

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Am I among friends
Torment
Helplessness
Misery
Pain

If I am then at least loneliness has nothing on me
If I am
Then the voices keep me company
These voices gets me teary up
And does cleanse what I need to

And they say misery loves company
I say to those then
The company is well met
And it serves me well.

Burst open

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Pounding
Throbbing
Tensed

Left temple bursted

Squeaking
Ringing
Screaming

Right temple opened

Head crown opens and bleed at the seams
Aahh

Sweet sweet release
At least now migraine is off my head

Mind over matter

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Relentless
Incessant
Tireless

These voices won’t stop
These days cannot be stop

My head is bursting
Temples throbbing

One pill to put it in dormancy
But tomorrow it comes again

Miseryhead

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This has been in me
No matter what i do
Does not matter when in medication or not

It flies like so
The sooner it dissipates
I would be better in minutes
Then it boils again

Oh sweet pomegranate
If I partake you I’m in for it
If not would I be encased in your halls

Sweet sorrow
Don’t depart
Your the only one that I love