. . . papa hirapan ko pa ba ang aking;
mata sa kaka iyak.
puso para magdugo.
kamay sa aking mga abilidad.
paano pa kung . . .
eto ay andyan.
eto ay pakita pa.
eto ay nakita sa yo.
How the hell of a fuck,
must I be so naive to think. . .
you can at least know what I had gone thru.
In a way,
I want and need to dig deep and will,
I want and need to dig deep and cry of all tries,
I want and need to dig deep for you to know.
I will not,
Blame all your shame.
Blame how you neglected and abandoned.
Blame how you are and will always be.
In my way. . .
that is how I want to forgive you,
that is how I want to love you.
that is how I will always honor and respect you.
I am to know of a miserable past that doesn’t make sense to me.
I am to be the one who you knew you can hold hack and would’ve care for you in your waning.
I do not want that. . .
All I know that is yours to be in.
All I know that is yours to bear.
I will give my own misery for no one,
but my shit muthastinking way,
that is mine alone.