anxiety and worry, Blank Verse, Drawing/Sketch, Emotional warfare, free verse, hate and anger, Mixed media, pain and suffering, poetry

. . . I am to presume all of the years,

and the muddled,

scrubbed and soiled,

tattered and shed.

None at all by my own assumptions

since all of these lovely anxieties,

all of my disappointments,

are nothing to someone but,

an emotional tantrum.

Yet someone who had a paper saying,

that is the only case.

Then she hands me a paper saying,

take a number,

take this pill,

and shove everything.

Since all of my life’s trial

are none but all

that matters to no one.

Only to myself

I am to see.



®Artsydhude 97-18

™XENOphagz, XenoGrapx

Blank Verse, free verse, hate and anger, pain and suffering, relationships

Rant on. wtfhshz.

Mornings are always like your rain.

Its the same as your face.

Blunt, hard and offensive as u R.

Sometimes why do a I even bother

Give what loving patience I have.

Yes I know I am a sarcastic one

For you.

Thing is, u cant even see beyond your thick glasses,

That makes you once very,

Voluptous and alluring that made

My knees weak.


I cant even stand looking at you.

I cany rant and vent as much.

I will not deny my right on that.

That is the only thing,

I do for myself.

Drawing/Sketch, hate and anger, Mixed media, poetry

NsVs x AuVi 88.z:1

Crap your mouth,

coz I know

your effing greed will always be yours

and yours to your own.

I am not,

I will not be,

. . . yet I do have your family name.

. .  . yet you gave me my own first name.

Then what else is there,

when all of my ranting and raving rage.

So go ahead,

do want you want,

I am not,

I will not be a part of what you think,

Coz i know

your eternal and words be always.

 “Akala ko”.



®artsydhude 97-18


Digital drawing, hate and anger, Life, poetry

NmV #00.a3

In hatred life is vigorous.

In hatred it fuels all one can imagine.

In the mode of that anger,

The eye is blinded.

In the sensation of all frustration,

leads all senses as a rock.

Numbness is not a feeling,

Numbness is the power that keeps one,

everywhere caged and locked inside.

Vader asks me with intent and content,

Confront all of myself

 “Release your anger”

Seems to me his hate has much more,

than mine could ever be.


 “Anakin Skywalker, Darth Vader” all rights reserved under Lucasfilm via Disney Entertainment .



®artsydhude 07-18


Digital drawing, doodle, Emotional warfare, hate and anger, Line art, Prose

AuVi .00088

The problem of all negativity is when the positive is happily laughing at him.

Thus the laughter makes it more unbearable for negative to be happy.

That jolly gay and rambunctious laughter makes negative wants to murder

positive ‘s face in.

The more she laughed and negative hid its face, started to walk.

Positive said to him,

 “Why so glum?”

 “Keep on laughing, k. Lemme alone”

 “Your a joykill”


A reminder for us all, laughter sometimes isn’t good when someone

does not want it.





abstract, Blank Verse, current state, Digital drawing, doodle, Drawing/Sketch, Emotional warfare, hate and anger, Life, Line art, noodling, pain and suffering, Personal, poetry, relationships

NmBc 20i

To honor someone

Is to respect what they had become.

To admire their history 

You’d still give them what they expected and wanted to hear.

So Do I dare,

Please your shit,

With all the fuck ups you gave me.

In spite of all greed that you keep til this day.

I know not to be of you,

I know not to be like you.

Yes I will always pray for your petty soul.

Yes I will always ask for your salvation.

 In that sense I will always cherish,

In that sense I will respect you.

Only to know only in his day,

When I am in his court

 I will weigh in at that gaping mouth of the crocodile,

And heralded into that escalators of heaven.


©oliver Melendez

® Ohms, artsydhude