Where are my

tools when i need it

ego and my id

when i wanted to use them

can i use them here at

my fingers

so i can control

what i cannot

so i can weild

how much to know

in so doing

I am applying what to be said and done.


Mech 2010 artsydhude


In this shade

of my day

at the valley of my brain

Death comes not the way it meant to be

but as a silent warrior 

weilds an armor that


yet i can breathe freely

without a mountain to look up to

i see cassiopeia


and alpha centauri

triangulates my position into

the valley of me.



Say a word

and maybe we can

and it should be

and can we

try to be more

do the things we use to

be a better lovers than we were


March2017-Burnt one-artsydhude

Has caffeine

been in there way too long

been in my vein far too long

it has come to this

that the fluid has nothing more

that became any other


thus i drink something 

and anything

that suits my buds

or just sip anyway

i choose.


March2017- Going back- artsydhude

To be 


so as to love

that defies hate

not as much fear

but doubt goes into it

that when it does come up

goes to the brain

yet the heart wont filter such thing,

the madness of it all

comes none


yes so shall it be like a wind 

a howling worry that doesnt end.


Abstractum 2017 artsydhude

Glorified food

So it seems

another year

another measured 

and marked day

but all the years since then

i knew none of what it meant

Happy Birthday.

Three years after the 4

no matter how many

and few of it

and this weary mind kept at it.

Yes it is

and it will be




Bheng and me.

Old enough

to see my flaw

to act my age

and to know i have been there

but no

I want to be a kid again

but no

I want to grow up with my daughter

but no

I want to fall in love

and i duncare if i have to

be a teenager in lust

so what,

life is what we see it

life is what we take it

life is. . .

what we need it and want it

so at least to say

live by day

die at night

wake up with a smile

sleep in the morning light.


Mechz-2 artsydhude 2009

Re-call the life

The past comes 

in the view

where nobody wants

Will its lessons

ever give


Will its moments

be the reminders

of life and love

once there is

once there was

To the future of days to be

to the future of things yet to come

Come hither Dawn

Come hither Dusk

Shall i remain in the grey

so at least it’ll be

a day in a shade of days i can be.


Mechz 2009 artsydhude

My kulit,

Aking gintong anak

Sa yo lang

ang attensyon

ang aking pagmamahal

Kahit ano man

Ikaw pa rin

ang aking 



One in a million smile

My diamond in the rough

so please

my darling

never forget

I will be here

no matter


how much

for you.