Yes i am alone
Within these four walls of my head
This head that spins when tones of shouts
Cursing on top of my cranium.
It wont stop
It cant stop
Coz i am not alone in my mesiry.
Now i know that i am alone
Coz i can hear myself screaming inside
All my molecules shouting
My neutrons are mingled with my inner static
Can you hear them
Maiming, accusing and wont let up
Really now i am alone
Somebody put me on a chair
Catatonic in a comatose situation
I am left with nothing but myself.
This piece goes is dedicated and a tribute to all who has schizoprenia.
I want to believe
Yet there is nothing more to believe
What would you say if i said would you, could you, how dare you
Do you want to see,
Care to touch what i feel and see,
Still you are doubters,haters, loathing and feeling
But not believing.
Then how do you?
Do you really have to,
Do you really need to,
Why cant you,
If you cant give that to yourself, then why ask it, why bother?
So you make it up, give meaning to it
Then it then be a purpose to your meaning
In the end it will be your justifications.
Now you have made yourself your own king or queen
On your own dominion
Making monsters out of your own dragons and demons
And saving them with your own angels.
Then it is your own myth
Can you believe you done it yourself,
Or was it just another belief becuz
You cant even believe in the first place
Left and right
My sight looking
Centered my bifocals
Still my vision blurs.
Take this limbs
Where’d i go just now.
My senses overruned, overwhelmed and under weight
With all this
I am lost.
I am lost in the sea of news of nephilism,
Ahh sweet misery upon me as the news bury me
As this feeling of dread where i tread to walk on fire
With the ground that keeps on rocking every foundation
Yes i am here
With no words
Speech juttering as news goes by
Murder, mayhem, utter shock, hypocrites, judgemental views
Ahh sweet sorrows of woe of now.
So please dont bury me, just cinder me to ashes
As i pray unto and for us,
That may we may improve with each other.
Blacked out by artsydhude 2016
This ugliness is so pretty for me
Coz i know my ugly is better than your pretty
And my perfection is nothing but your imperfection.
I want to come home to my ugliness
I want it to be my home
Coz in want nothing in return
So go ahead blame, shame and maim me
In front of everything
So you can be pretty.
Each time i step
I am further
In this puddle
It took me by suprise.
As i slid
My foot had its own mind
Took me to new heights of falling down.
Falling apart now
Now that the ground welcome my soul
This firm earth consoles me
Nourishes my body
As rain pours down on my life
I winked at the sky
The rain let up
A dim light peered and peeked at me
My foot no longer swelled
Got back up and headed